When its over...

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Try as hard as you might… when its over……, its over.

“Don’t look at me like that, We’re in public”, he had said looking very self conscious.

“Sorry!”

She hardly looked at him all evening. She wanted to drink him in, but his words stopped her. Never had she imagined that he will react like he did. He was unaware… he broke her heart.

It had been DAYS that they had met. The affection in her eyes was not easy to hide. He was apparently afraid to look at it so up close. It always had him running at jet speed. From the last time they had met to today, he was running. He had his reasons and he gave firm logic, and yet, one look into her eyes and he was Running…! All she wanted to do was look at him, take in everything that had changed… she wanted to reach out and touch him with her eyes…. Make a tactile memory with her visual awareness. Was that asking for too much?

Apparently it was!! Two weeks ago, He had kissed her, held her and looked at her like his eyes had never seen before. She had blushed and covered those deep penetrating beasts. The feeling of her hand on his face ran shivers thru him. What he really wanted to do was fulfill a dream he had seen many many years ago, bring to culmination a desire he had set out so very long ago. It was in his reach and yet… she would not have it. She wanted it… but she was just not ready. What stopped her? May be the same thing that made him respect what she chose.

“Not till you are ready. I waited for this for 10 years… a little longer wont matter.”

Wouldn’t it? Every time their lips locked and fingers touched in the slightest, it would matter. It would have every thing flooding back. May be that is why he shifted his leg away twice. It just kept coming back. The chairs were too close. She understood, she shifted away too. But finally they both gave up. It was so natural to have put her palm on his knee. Instead she started to sketch on the paper napkin.

“What are you doing?”

“Keeping myself busy enough to avoid looking at you.”

She sketched, she prayed, nursed the sudden blow. Her mind had gone blank… trying to think was not helping. All she could hear in his voice were the answers to the prayers she surrounded him with everyday. That seemed enough. In a few moments she was smiling. The Divine had not let her down. She looked at the big window in front of her, still carefully avoiding him. He followed her gaze and she stole a glance. He looked adorable with his glasses on. So elegant. Age suited him. The smile widened and the eyes lit up.

“I thought you saw a friend.”

“Nah… just …… looking…!”, their eyes met, but she shifted away.

They spoke and breathed and ate and drank, but thru it all… they remained silent. There was an unsaid everything that wanted to erupt. But his invisible shields were holding it. She had learnt better then to go past those. She played along. She had just one question… Why was it so hard for him to accept that they were simply friends yet so fond of each other? They were now a part of the others life. Neither could deny it. Yet… he pulled himself back. She felt it every time he looked at her. They were not stolen glances. Yet, she kept them unanswered.

The eating and drinking was over. It was time to leave. They walked out in silence. They were where at the spot where their ways separated. Finally they stood facing each other.

“Talk soon.”

“Humm.”

It was just a second within that moment and she knew it… the fight within had taken over him. Now no matter what they did, till he was not sorted… it was over! They shook hands. She took one last look, turned around and started walking…


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3 comments:

  1. UnknownSeptember 29, 2010 at 5:35 PM

    amazin...

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  2. SHRUTHI K MOHANOctober 7, 2010 at 11:19 AM

    nice post didi...true when its over its over :) keep blogging blessed be <3

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  3. AnonymousNovember 20, 2010 at 9:12 PM

    I don't think I will ever get over seeing you as Mahi from Mahi Way cuz that show has affected me in so many ways... You were brilliant in it.. I would love to email you cuz there are a few things I needed to ask you...would really appreciate it if I could have your email id...
    P.s. this post is brilliant!

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